I was sick yesterday and did not sleep well and woke to find that I am still sick. A big thanks for my life because I don’t have to work today. It’s true, I could have been earning a lot of money but the semester ended anyway and so I don’t have work on Mondays until the new year. I am so grateful that, if I want, I can stay home the whole day and recuperate. There is stuff I can do here, like my lesson plans and organize my desk and all that jazz and since I have to go into the city to work tomorrow morning, most of the other stuff that was on my list of plans to do today can be pushed back one day.
I have not seen Franziska for more than a month now. True, we have skyped often and I’ve even seen her on video a few times but you’re kidding all of us if you think it’s the same. I have accomplished some important things the past month, namely gotten a photo exhibition together, organized 2 more possibly (Romania and California) and finished writing AND typing my newest novel. This novel is definitely one of the best of the 5 I’ve written and I’m looking forward to get a second draft finished and getting it out to some people, including publishers and then I’ll also look into self-publishing. I’ve always been a sort of DIY-guy since I was 18 and first went to college. Part of the influence of having been a punk. It’s funny, I wasn’t a punk in the mohawk-sense but in my mentality, how I looked at things, borders I created for what offended or bothered me. Most of those borders were extended greatly by my time in college and yet some were shrunk, namely my feelings for lip-sync. I am completely against lip-sync in any forum whatsoever and I am bothered by it when bands do it. But most other borders, like people’s attitudes towards things started to become more of a curiosity rather than something that would make or break a friendship. That’s probably one thing that led me to liking psychology, in addition to Robert Moser (rip), that punk rock had somehow helped me become a more understanding person and then psychology just sort of fit then. I’d never thought about it like that but it’s interesting half a lifetime ago to think about such things.
I don’t accomplish nearly as much as I should in life but the problem is, compared to 98% of the people I know, I have accomplished “more” than they have. Granted, many of them have children which in and of itself is an enormous accomplishment that I think I am still a few years away from. I’m 35 and living like 25. Is there anything wrong with that? I don’t think so. I’m responsible, I get my things done and I’m still thinking about the future.
And the future is telling me that I will finally see Franziska again in less than two weeks! I’m flying home next Friday, I can’t wait! I’ve got an interview for an internship before that and a short trip to Holland this coming weekend. I think this will be the fifth year in a row that I will have flown in a plane more than 20 times in a year. That is remarkable and I would guess that besides business travellers, there are not many people on earth who flew 20 times a year the past five years only for travel. I’m proud of that, but I also know the damage it has done to the environment and that is another reason that next year I’m going to try and fly less next year. It will easily still be 10 times because flying home and back is often 4 and if I do that twice and then go to Romania, bam! there is 10 times. We’ll see.